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14 entries this month
Shit
03:11 Sep 30 2009
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Shit......shit.....and more shit! Meh parents have literally kicked me out i went back today but then i left again shortly. There is just no way i can live at home anymore, i need to go to the homeless but im scared there going to chuck me in a hostel and well there not nice places. Need to stick it out at home and try get my own place........meh things just seem very impossible at the moment. Giving up.......:(
Nerves
01:47 Sep 25 2009
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Im so scared and nervous about today....my boyfriend is meeting my parents for the first time. So i am sat here at nearly 2am in the morning wondering why the hell im nervous? O_o He probably more nervous than me........
QUIT!
18:59 Sep 24 2009
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Im seriously thinking about quitting with the whole writing in this journal thing.....use to love to do it but now i don't see the point, not many people read it and half of the time it's just random pointless rubbish and me ranting and telling you about my life.......meh :(
Wooop!
14:02 Sep 24 2009
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Had a great day yesterday :)
The dentist was easy but thanks to my boyfriend he came with me and held my hand while they did the filling i needed :) It actually wasnt that bad i was suprised thought it would hurt more.....and then they showed me what my teeth will look like when they have done and wow.....they look amazing! I was born with a rare problem to do with my teeth, i carnt really remember the name for it tho. But i only ever grew 4 second teeth, so most of my teeth are pretty small and i have quite a few gaps.......i also have spikey fang like teeth but they will be gone when the work is done :(.
I hate my teeth so much it really knocks down my confidence and stuff.....but in december all that wil change when my teeth look super better hehe! :)
After all that is was off to college.........
Then went into town with two of my most random friends hehe! There were quite abit of picture taking so i shall upload some and post them in my journal for all to see hehe!
Then later on i went to see my lovely boyfriend chilled with him and then skipped off home to bed hehe!
So today im thinking day in perhaps? hmm.....im not quite sure yet hehe!
Scared!
22:48 Sep 22 2009
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Has the dentist tomorrow.......my appointment is a hour and a half! Can you believe its that long :( Being sat in that chair all that time is going to drive me insane....plus what there going to do :(
Personally i hate dentist.....so yes im scared about tomorrow :(
WTF!
20:35 Sep 22 2009
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Still regretting Sunday nights drunkness.....yes i was really drunk :( hell such a hangover i still feel hungover and its now tuesday.....i swear im not getting that drunk again!!!
To much druken nakedness......and dancing to dirty dubstep. Hell never been that pissed O_o
Regret a few things.......me, stef and robs bestmate Moger all really pissed my Rob off. We wrote in different sauces like ketchup, mustard, majo etc......'LOVE YOU ROB.........from Kirsty and Moger'
It was about 6 in the morning because we couldnt sleep, Rob woke up and saw what we did and kicked off big style....started smashing things up, put a hole through his bedroom wall O_o yes so i feel really guilty!
No more drinking for a while........:(
Apart from that it was a good night i guess......
ill!
15:19 Sep 18 2009
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Well not been online for a few days. I think i have food posioning or something so everything i eat its coming back up it really isn't good :( Think it was this pasta thing i ate the other day.......apart from feeling like rubbish things are good. Im planing the music video with Danny what me and him are doing at college. I shall tell you more about this in another entry, i just feel like i really want to go back to be at the moment :(
Plus tonight im suppose to be going to Concrete Jungle with my boyfriend.....and then back to his for a massive house party, but it really doesn't look like i wll be going now :( yes my life sucks.......
Meow :)
19:09 Sep 14 2009
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Ah college was brill :) PLUS!!!
Our tutor is doing a short movie outside college and bascially its going to be Invasion of the body snatchers style....if you haven't seen this movie then you should. Its going to be in the 70's style too. Im helping out with the filming and stuff so yaay excited :) I got to read the script last night and wow its sounds really good indeed, I personally love the alternative ending its bloody great!
The film when its finished will be showed on the night of halloween down Kent. I don't think i be able to go see if we win :( but its abit away yet, just really carn't wait to go out and get filming missed doing this kind of thing over the summer holidays.
Rainbow alert :P
21:12 Sep 11 2009
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It felt great to be back at college again, had such a lovely day. Got to see everyone again which was pretty cool, but one down thing was that i have to retake my maths GCSE :( i need a C apparently otherwise the university i want to go to won't accept me. Ugh i really dont wanna do it......but i have no choice, hell i was so glad not to do maths when i left school but now i have to do it all over again for a like a year. Im not too bad at math but i can imagine this is going to be a challenging thing for me now im older :(.
Just tackling my national diploma media with the GCSE maths on top.....im hoping it wont be to much you know :(
We will see i guess......
Oh i randomly saw my boyfriend in town haha! was pretty weird seen as i wasnt suppose to be meeting up with him till later xD FUN TIMES :)
But yes anyway this random woman stopped my boyfriend and asked to take a picture off him......strange eh?
HAHA! there is a reason he still has his multicoloured hair from the festival he went to a few weeks ago lol!.
The woman was shouting 'Oh wow! i want to take a picture of the rainbow' It was really amusing.
Its been a good day overall :)
Yaay!
19:27 Sep 10 2009
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YAAY! my hair looks so beautiful now :P finally redyed it tonight :) Its now a lovely darkish red.......mmm i call it a dark sexy red hehe! Robs going to be like mmm that is sexy :)
Well apart from that i had such a lovely last few days spending all my time with Rob its being wonderful :) Plus its back to college tomorrow.....im really glad to be going back i missed everyone at college and i can not wait to get stuck back into work with making movies and stuff :) EXCITED!
Fuck you!
13:40 Sep 08 2009
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Right im done with taking peoples shit! From now on i live by my own rules.....i don't give a bloody toss about anything what certain people say anymore. Yes a god damn fucking eye opener indeed, some people really are heartless bastards!
So if you going to come to me with your shitty bullshit advice then please don't.....im going to be like everyone else and think about number 1 from now on. No more helping people.....no more being the pathetic little loser i am!
Rob and Becky are right.....i need to come out of my shell and be more for myself from now on. I need to get out in the world and im totally going to do that now......
END OF RANT!..........
Damn!
12:18 Sep 08 2009
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Damn don't you just hate waiting for phone calls :(
Was let down by my mate this morning was suppose to be meeting him because i haven't seen him for ages. But ah no biggy we can meet anoter time :) Ahh i really can not wait to see Rob again today EXCITED! ^_^ wow....im such a kid these days hehe!
Spider!!!
22:01 Sep 07 2009
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AHHHHHH! i was entering the kitchen a short while ago because i was going for a smoke and there it was sitting on the top of our chest freezer!!! Naturally i screamed to my parents 'BIG SPIDER' As soon as i said that the spider went leaping off the freezer and started to run towards me :-s its like it knew i was going to run and get a glass to capture it lol!
Yea but anyway i got it and set it free in the garden :)
All good hehe! :)
Boring.....
20:02 Sep 06 2009
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Well what a boring weekend :( due to me having no money at all, means i can not even go out.....its really bad :( i hate being stuck in the house. Been trying to bide my time by watching movies and just popping on here every so often, it really isnt making the time go any quicker though :(
I get so sick of coming online these days.....get bored so easily. Im suprised i do because hell i could never tear myself away from being online lol! but now i rather not :(
Another thing bugging me is MUSIC!!! for some odd reason i can not get into listening to music! Again very strange for me.....because well i live for music! i love it soooo much! Ugh just having a down period i guess. Not seen Rob my huni since thursday and that was a bad day because i saw him and he had to leave his house to go help a friend.....and well he was gone hours! I got bored and decided to walk home took me a long bloody time....walking through woods and on various dirtpaths i was very muddy :( He was pretty pissed that i left but come on he rushed off so i felt the need to do the same! and there was no chance i was sitting there for more bloody hours :(
Yes so what a SHIT WEEKEND!
COMMENTS
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placidchaos
09:46 Sep 30 2009
I'm sorry to hear that, that kind of thing is never fun.
Viridian
13:58 Sep 30 2009
You should've left / gotten kicked out during summer, getting kicked out at winter is the worst; shit sucks donkeyballs.
Well enjoy getting your shit stolen :D
vampboi
06:53 Oct 01 2009
you know how parents can get. you just have to stick it out and do what you have to do to make it on your own. don't rush it though because things are getting tuff as heck especially getting your own place.
MorbidAngels15
12:29 Oct 01 2009
yes its just trying to stick it out being ill with a horrible cold at the mo doesnt help :(